Complexities Vs Simplicities ... of the mind!

This is kinda funny…atleast I laughed at myself. :P Aah well I’m home all the time now since my exams got over so u’d think as always I’d be glued to my comp but strangely so I had a whole lotta books to catch up on and I never really found the time until now so the 24th night or early 25th morning …whatever, when my net connection conked for the umpteenth time {I dunno whats up with MTNL, I need to keep repluggin my modem…its so buggin sometimes} I said to myself “oh lord chuck it…lemme read a bit and come back” So I picked up my long left book Above Average by Amitabha Bagchi…imagine I was stuck on the 2nd chapter for months now :O, so I read into the wee hours of the morning, slept and woke up on Christmas afternoon (yesterday) and read some more to finally finish it up in the evening. The funny part is that my Dad had been tryin to access the internet the entire day yesterday and he kept askin me to look into it as to why he cudnt visit any website despite replugging the modem a 10...

This post was written on the 13th of December…am just publishin it now. Might not be absolutely relevant right now...but just read on. I’m supposedly the ‘epitome of expression’! I dunno if its words finding me or me finding words but I do happen to string em together to say exactly what I feel most often than not. The question here now is……is it such a good thing after all? I mean yeah right, I say stuff I want to, I don’t hide feelings/thoughts but isn’t that supposed to be reciprocated some time or the other? Maybe I’ve never met someone as expressive as me, but when I really wanna feel like someone considered me worthy enough to share their ‘life’ with them…I don’t get that opportunity quite often, of coz not as much as I give it out. Am I being unreasonable by wanting to be surprised for once? I hope things mend themselves soon…there’s loadsa stuff driving me nuts anyways!

Have you ever felt jealous of a friend? Okay lemme be a lil more specific, you have two friends… say A and B; have u ever felt jealous of B coz A was giving more attention / time / thought / importance to B rather than to you? What exactly do you call this…when you can’t even voice it to either of your friends and you can’t help feeling silly about yourself? Is it really jealousy… or something else? More importantly how do you stop feeling like this?

This post was intended to be published on 11th ie day before yesterday but it got stuck in the pipeline due to lack of resources. I had to be posting this a few days ago but couldn’t afford time coz of my exams on consecutive days. Moreover I’ve got things to add that happened just these past 2 days. Happy times I won’t exactly be telling you something new if I tell you that I’m crazy …:P. This is just another one of the typically crazy things that I do. Rajat {he gets a lot a mention on this space…u ought to know him by now :)} had his birthday on the 9th of this month, and I wanted to do something special … a celebration with friends, the usual cake and treat wasn’t a possibility coz we had our exams startin from the 10th but I still had to do something. Umm now what can be possibly easy on the pocket yet thoughtful and something that conveys a lot… I thought quite a lot … even took help from Cheri, Bonnie, Supriya {Thanks guys :) } and Mum and came up with well atleast ‘something ...

Mads had tagged me what seems like centuries ago, but i guess i was too occupied to have had the time to do the middle name tag before now... The Rules: 1. Players, you must list one fact that is somehow relevant to your life for each letter of your middle name. If you don’t have a middle name, use the middle name you would have liked to have had. 2. When you are tagged you need to write your own blog-post containing your own middle name game facts. 3. At the end of your blog-post, you need to choose one person for each letter of your middle name to tag. 4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling the persons you have tagged that they’re tagged. I don't really have a middle name so im just gonna use my popular nick : 'Vands' V ery Organized : Yup thats totally me...facts to corroborate - My friends at school always knew me to be well equipped all the time, so if u had to borrow a stapler, glue, scissors, highlighters, colored pens, felt pens; all u had to do was ask V...

A simple tag which i picked up from Mann ... 1. Name one person who made you laugh last night? Nobody but somebody did make me smile though. :) 2. What were you doing at 0800? Tryin my best not to get up....snoozing for the third time :P 3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Counting Java chapters in my Sylabbus. 4. What happened to you in 2006? Met almost all the people who make up my life now! :) 5. What was the last thing you said out loud? "11 12 13 14 15 .... 22 23 24" when i was countin the Java chapters :P 6. How many beverages did you have today? Water. 7. What color is your hairbrush? Dark Green… 8. What was the last thing you paid for? Cycle Rickshaw yesterday. 9. Where were you last night? In my bed. 10. What color is your front door? Off White. 11. Where do you keep your change? In a lil zip in my wallet. 12. What’s the weather like today? Bright and sunny...with just a lil wind. 13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor? Peppermint BonBon. 14. What excites you? Music...

I LOVE MY CAB... er i mean the ppl in it and today cudnt have been a funner day!! :):) Well u see today Rajat had his viva early in the morning as opposed to the rest of us so he'd gone on a bike with someone else and he had taken along a red helmet. Now flash past the vivas we were as usual whiling away time in the canteen waiting for the cab to come listenin to music and generally being our silly selves. The cab came and I went and grabbed my pet seat when Rajat remembered that he had forgotten his helmet in the canteen... Picture this SCENE 1 Rajat is walkin towards the cab in the parking and he had a bottle of flavored milk in one of his hands and the helmet in the other...so then this guy does the typical 'harkat' he tried puttin on his helmet without realising that the milk bottle was open and then....down came half the milk pouring on his brand new sweater ;)) oh man what a scene i wish i had clicked it but my phone was in his pocket ... damn! Namita and I almost bur...

Uh well i just happened to click on this yahoo promotion while loggin in to my messenger...which took me to this rather interesting lookin flirt test ... so here are the results abt my FQ = Flirt Quotient. Lemme know what you think ;) CINNAMONY FLIRT You stand true to the Cinnamon flavour of Bru Cappuccino. You're playful and witty. Life to you is all about challenges and having fun and you display that in your flirting too. Humour is your forte whether it be passing a witty comment or cracking a funny joke. You imbibe this in your flirting technique and impress the others with your intelligence and comic timing. You also have the ability to pre-empt what others want and fine-tune your flirting accordingly. The aggressive flirt Scorpions go all out while flirting with someone they like. Works well, Scorpions, if that person is a good match for you, but if you go for someone who's too quiet or shy then you could be ...

To be honest I was very apprehensive about doing this tag…coz I was sure I won’t be able to stand ground in front of Mann who so beautifully executed this one and tagged me to take it up. But I promised her I’d do it so after thinking quite a bit, the three things that I wouldn’t be able to live without are… Colors The black of the nights. The bright orange of the setting sun. {I never get to see it rise…lol} The vivid hues of the roses and sunflowers and bougainvilleas and marigolds and orchids and gladiolas. The absolutely soothing green of the fresh leaves. The colors of the book covers. The white of icecream and the clouds. The brown of chocolate, coffee and soil. The blue of the expansive sky. The pink of my cheeks and lips. :) The black of the eyes I gaze into. The gold of the diary milk wrapper foils. The blue of ink in my pens. My life basically has to be Eastman Color, I can’t survive in a Black & White world. Music Ok this is easy to reason. Every song I know has a teens...

I dunno if u guys missed me and my random babbles, but I sure as hell missed myself.The past month has been rather eventful, from my bro getting married to me having the pleasure of actually meeting my dearest friends, from having my second sessionals to me having quite a strange Diwali, from me suddenly having a new family member (my sis in law :) ) to me being the most confused soul on earth for major parts of what I remember!!! Does seem like a lot nahin?? :P Oh look at this I even forgot to mention my 21st birthday in there … hehe Being away from here and from everything else that formerly constituted my life wasn’t easy, it ate my insides constantly, so without further ado here I am :). I was muddled and caught up with the GEC and TDL’s on my halo to even have thought through what was coming right ahead…and that’s when suddenly the rush began. I had a deathly boring week in coll when my frnds were all away makin merry in Pilani and I was stuck here attending classes & checkin...

I dunno what world I’ve been in… but I’ve definitely been away from my world. And all this while I’ve gone through a strange range of emotions and feelings. Today was just another one of those days where I was more confused than anything else and well there are just so many reasons that I cud only hope to make sense after I’ve listed em… I’ve been experiencing what I like to call “Global Entity Crisis”. This cud very well make up a whole post as I had planned on earlier but nevertheless I’ll tell u what it is… U see my life has gone through a whole lotta behavioral changes ever since I got to college…I used to be this “happy in my own world” girl with a close peer group (mostly well okay entirely girls) and I depended on quite a lot. I did feel the lack of male bonding if I may call it that in my life but never really regretted it or anything. Ever since my school days I’ve been an easy person to be with, it’s very easy for a new person to gel with me and therefore I’ve always had a lo...

Firstly ppl sorry for my absense from my favorite space on the web but then unfortunately nuthing triggered my fingers to go tap tap tap on the keyboard to result in text on my blog ! Why am i writing today? Well because I'm confused and I need answers... It should be common knowledge that i have exams comin up... yup they're knockin on my door this Monday and will remain unwanted guests in my life till Saturday...but the problem is not that, the problem is that me the "sleep hater", the "insomniac" {actually that still holds... i still can't sleep at night} is sleepin like i fear i would forget the defination tomorrow or something like that. I dunno if its to do with the exams or just the fact that i have hellishly boring subjects and i hate sittin at home and havin nuthing better on my TDL except numbers of chapters against the name of my subjects. I feel that i need to rest to make my 'super floaty' head stay still, but it just backfires and e...

This one is just about how sometimes it gets so irritating being me. Last night after I figured out the enormous amount of work I had to do, I was wondering why I don’t ever have the time for stuff I really wanna do, rather than stuff I have to do. My morning which began way after noon was spent in looking at engagement rings with mum on amazon... so bhaiya could shortlist, something for Neha, but as fate had it we didn’t find her size in the only ring everyone liked…later when Bonnie had gone out for dinner and I was supposed to be working, he called again and I had another hour long discussion over the stone, size, color, cut, shape, clarity…everything abt her ring!!! Ok fast forward to me realizing that I needed to have read the first three chapters of my very big DBMS book in order to do the assignments I needed to submit. :O time toh tha nahi, and maine kuch bhi socha ho, the night had separate plans…. Just when I was finally settling with my books and starting work BSES decided i...

Right u read it correctly, I am contradicting the famous quote “Nobody is perfect.”, but then I have my reasons. You see I was watching this movie on HBO : The Perfect Man, and all this while I was thinking who exactly can be called a ‘perfect man’. How do you define something that complicated especially when you’re not even sure whether it exists? The movie was nearing its end when Tanuj called and here’s the part of the convo that led to this post: Me: Hello Tanuj: Hey Vandita :) {He always greets with a smile, u know over the phone too} Me: Heyy! Tanuj: kya kar rahi hai? Me: Oh I was watching HBO. Tanuj: whats on it? Me: The Perfect Man Tanuj: who’s the perfect man? Me: It’s the name of the movie. Tanuj: Who’s the perfect man? pause Me: Ummm everyone is… Tanuj: How can everyone be perfect? Me: for someone! {there I had said it, my reason for contradiction} Tanuj: Who’s the perfect man for u? Me: I don’t know. Tanuj: I thought u knew! I read somewhere that everyone has at least 6 or ...

Okay so I'm late but since CM-Chap invited anyone who read to do this tag, I thought I'd take it up. Here come ny answers... 1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it? Scar?? :-? Actually i do have a lil burn someplace i dont wanna tell u ppl... but the point is i don't really remember how i got it, I think it must have been one of those accidents with the iron when i was a lil kid. 2. What does your phone look like? Umm its looks pretty much like a normal Sony Ericsson W700i in Titanium Gold...but my fav part of my phone is the mobile hanging... its Gini now. U can have a look at it in my post Giggles Galore :) 3. What is on the walls of your bedroom? Okay we'll go in order...on the wall right in front of me is a painting of a colorful flower arrangement {painted by my maasi i guess} and right below it is a hanging mirror. The wall on my right has a nib painting of two birds on a branch {made by yours truly :)}, next to it is the huge collage i made with...

Today is realization day 2. I’ve realized that I do no good by kidding myself by praying for things to happen; things don’t happen…we make them happen! You know when u begin to tell yourself that no matter how many times you fall you will get somewhere… what you’re actually telling yourself is this : “I’m gonna walk a bit at whatever speed I want, who cares I will get somewhere and I will then learn to like the ‘somewhere’ as my ‘place’.” What’s really wrong with that statement is the fact that ‘hello! everyone, every god damn person gets somewhere’…I’ve not got to make the ‘somewhere’ as ‘my place’, that’s not OK…I’ve got to get to ‘my place’ and settle for nowhere else!!! Hopin my realisations work for me and I can begin to be strict about dictating about my own life’s path. Peace within.

Nahi bhaee mere mom dad ki anniversary nahi hai….. and meri anniversary bhi bilkul nahi hai… u see I’m still single :P Today infact happens to be the anniversary of a very special day in my life, its special for loads of crazy reasons and I was crazily happy that day. Flashback to 8th August 2006 Woke up to great music in the morning, those days my alarm used to be scheduled at 8 each morning, and I would tune in to 102.6 Take Off and Time Out from 8 to 9am everyday…my cab came at around 9:05am. I dunno what was special but I had a smile stuck to my face the entire time. As if good music in the morning wasn’t enough I got to listen to lovely music in the cab too on the way to college…but then din itna simple bhi nahi tha. Dwarka mein our cab broke down and we had to get down start walking in order to find some bus or something. We were 9 people…Ankuj, Swati, Swati C, Deepali, Neha A, Mansi, Shalein Sir, Rajat and Me. Imagine all of us walking on the road and that’s when we passed these...

No no incase ure thinkin I'm gonna bore you by talkin abt my subject classes, uve gotten it absolutely wrong. Today we had the best JAVA class ever.... Check this out, Mr Ram Paul Singh {he reads it as Ram " Pal " Singh himself =))... teacher ka kam, chowkidaar ka naam zyaada lagta hai :P} was tryin hard to control a class of some 60 odd students {like us ;) } and was failing miserably at it. A sinser {sincere} few, occupying the first two rows were religiously noting down everything RPS was saying {read uttering more to himself than to the class} and funnily so, those partycular students were the only ones who could hear him :P Since I couldn't have missed out such an awesome opportunity on grabbing some great blogging material.... heres what my notebook looked like: 7/08/07 JAVA (Th) ----> Futures of Java {This is exactly what he had said and believe me if he hadn't written "Features of Java" on the board none of us would have known what we were ...

Okay was in bed early today...dunno what happened i got up to switch on the light and picked up my pencil to write the following... Maybe you'll never look into my eyes and say what i so badly want to hear Maybe we won't be so close yet another year after year Maybe things would change and we would be more far than near But... and then i strangely blanked out!!! {This was 10 minutes ago} Can someone try and complete this.. ?

As I type out this post I have a mixed bag of thoughts swirling around in my head and I’m gonna be addressing a few of them here. My 4th sem results are due to drop like a bombshell on us any damn day and I have a feeling that that day in all likelihood is today , I can’t even begin to describe the pit in my stomach which has got nuthin to do with the fact that I haven’t eaten anything since morning… As its common knowledge that my brother is getting married in October and there is loads to be done, I’m having quite a lot of fun goin shoppin with mum and planning every bit of the days that my frnds are gonna be here…. Yes I’m super excited coz my darling buddies are gonna be here in Delhi and I’m gonna be meetin all of em together for the very first time in my life {Tan, bacche u’re gonna be missed a lot…. Plz find out if u can even manage one day} Even though I am super excited, I’m also very nervous abt just the idea of meetin all my frnds for the first time myself but on top of that...

This one is for my darling friend Garu , who’s turning 18 today … Happy Birthday!!! >:D Its hard to express how lucky I feel to know this female in my life, talkin to her is a complete pleasure, she’s a sweet, beautiful person and I love her to bits. Terming the Vands u all know as “incorrigible” {which btw I agree is perfectly true} is credited to Garu. You should hear the way she says that, its so cute ;)) I wanna take this opportunity to congratulate her big time, for makin it into college this year… u totally deserved it and I’m sure ure gonna be great in class and ahead of it. Also tera gift from my first salary is fixed, bas teen saal ruk jaa :P Garu is type of girl you would really fall in love with, once u know her and I know quite a few ppl who would be noddin their heads right thru this sentence… we all love u bacche :) I don’t think I can write too much right now so I’ll just give u something I hope u’ll like….Happy Birthday once again, here’s ur lil bday gift. PS: I’m...

In case u're wondering what the title means... Here's presenting the reason for sleepless nights, tiring days and my hibernation these past few weeks......my in-house summer project! Well its kinda like a music site, wherein we maintain a database of Albums (based on language: Hindi or English and format: CD or Cassette) in MS Access and do our server side scriping in ASP (Active Server Pages for the uninitiated) I have my final presentation in the morning, just a few hours from now...and thats exactly what i've embedded below Plz view the slideshow, so that you understand what we made and then you can go and check the site (or whatever lil functionalities we managed to pull together) in action...I just uploaded on a free hosting site supporting ASP, the url's given below. You'll only be able to use the user section of the site coz i'm the admin of course :P, but just leave in your honest comments here...i would appreciate that a lot. Click here to get to Revolu...

First things first i'm sorry to have been totally off the scene for so long....but then u know the procrastinater in me :p Today's post is about the unexpected turn of events on 10th July. Flashback to 9th night.... 11:30pm approx: I was already in bed, very early by my standards but then i had nuthin else to do, my laptop had gone for repairs and the nocturnal bird in me was demanding peace and rest for a change...so no music either! My phone was on vibrator when i got a msg from one of my frnds who was in town and we had planned to meet sometime soon (Lets name this person A)...so A wrote "wanna meet tomorrow morning?" sleepy me: kal? kahan? kitne baje? A: 1oish anywhere me: hmmm....i can come somewhere by metro A: ...... basically he asked me to call him coz his bal was low and the rest of the plans were made on the phone. He said he wud confirm in the morning whether we wud be meetin or not. I was to get to Dhaula Kuan somehow in the mornin and we wud go from ther...

Today the strangest of things happened…Bonnie asked me whats been goin on in my mind…sayin that I haven’t talked abt it much. Its strange because most often than not…she is the only one person in this world who needs no words to figure out whats goin on with me…or maybe that’s because I tell her even before I tell myself. And since there’s so much talk about blogger being therapeutic, I thought I might as well give it a try. Lets see if I manage to make some sense of this jigsaw called my life... There are a few things that broadly make up the pieces of the puzzle. As I wipe out tears that have silently rolled down from my eyes I think back to see how I’ve come to be where I am today…so where am I today? And why is it different from where I was before? The answers don’t come easily and not without mulling over and over about things that don’t make me happy. Though I do thank God every day for giving me people who make all worries seem non existent, people who’d wish for me to be happy ...

The weekend came and went and here are the three things I totally loved and I'd like to share with you guys! Abhishek Bachchan's mindblowing performance at the IIFA 2007 Yorkshire....might I mention that i found him totally hot in the red kurta :P ;) The following two beautiful songs from the soundtrack of "Just Like Heaven" starring Mark Ruffalo and Reese Witherspoon. Truly sweet :)

I'm in this ultra romantic mood right now...blame it on the music. :P I just thought of listing out a few things that I really wish make me go "awww" in this life ... For starters I want to have my special someone (who will be referred to as "him" in this post) to really be in love with me...every other thing on the list will prolly happen on its own. :P I wanna share a dance with him on a song that he knows I love. I wanna be thinking of callin him at night when he calls to tell me that he wasn't gettin sleep. I wanna lean on his shoulder and drift into mild slumber, while he watches me. I wanna hold his hand to stop him from leaving and know that he will stay. I wanna go for a long walk with him. I want us to get soaked in the rain together. I want him to call me something that no one else does...and I want to call him something that no one else does. I wanna overhear him tellin his frnds why he loves me. I wanna go shopping with him so I can see him pull ...

Its been a long time since i wrote abt something, but then nuthin worthwhile has been happening....today i'm just gonna blog abt random thoughts in my head. This is in no particular order so here goes: I start college (inhouse project) on Monday and it is quite confusing. Firstly I dunno what to make , how to make .... etc etc, have just left that till we are briefed on 11th. Plus we are expected to work in groups of three and to say that it was hard to find team members... would be an understatement. After a whole lot of confusion, some of which i didn't totally appreciate...I finally do have a group. Phew! I've been awfully bored with absolutely nuthing to do besides eating Bonnie's head after my exams ended on 2nd June and the nights are just terrible, too much to handle sometimes. Saw three movies this week, Shootout At Lokhandwala on Saturday, Prime on HBO today (Thursday) and Cheeni Kum also today. Shootout.. was the wrong choice for the last day of exams, though ...

I just got home after my first end sem exam and the grey cells have already been prodded .... heres something that my old friend/acquaintance left me as an offliner on yahoo... on getting officially, legally and 'otherwise' divorced today, i realized as one of my friends said - SOMETIMES it's the fact(s) of life- we make them cry who care for us, we cry for them who don't care for us and we care for them who will never cry for us. This just had me stirred ... the sheer verity of the statement !!!

Hmmm surprise surprise... It rained again today and a lot at that. I did click a few pics again... they're not really good but today i dunno what came of me... I'm gonna put up pics of myself on my blog for the first time. :) I was tryin to capture the beautiful yellow sandwiched in between the greens but my cam was facing the 'khatra' of gettin wet so i dunno if it came out well :P Another try with a bit of zoom Me smiling my 'silly happy' rain smile :)... [I dunno what made me put this up, Bonnie and Cheri wanted a 'wet' me...woh thoda mushkil hai when im the only one home with the cam but I hope u like what u got :D] Good Ol Mez Again ... I personally like this pic better. Hmmm yeh aiwe hi kheenchi hai :P PS: me is nervous abt puttin myself on the blog :-?