Fighting Tears…of desperation
For all who don’t know the reason for my sudden sabbatical lemme tell you I can’t quite figure out myself. :-/ As I write this down I’m sittin in our half unpacked house {I haven’t yet gotten to callin it ‘home’, and yes there is a difference} with no access to the internet, no television, pathetic electricity situation and living with an enormous distance from everything I call my life. Sounds bad? It’s worse… I’ve been here since Tuesday night, and there hasn’t been one night that I’ve slept properly without shedding a few silent tears {sometimes more than a few}. You know the scrabble alphabets? Well just picture all of them in a box that has been shaken vigorously and then toppled and emptied…that’s exactly how all of my life’s letters have fallen out of place; each day has become a farrago. I don’t know how to really say how I feel. But if I can put it in words it would be depression from loneliness… Can’t even write further, it’s hard to explain. I only hope this mess called my l...