Complexities Vs Simplicities ... of the mind!

[Appended to Penwork] 29th April 7:28pm I know so little Yet it hurts so much I know it stings Yet I love so much The hardest thing I know I have to do is Walk Away ..., Never to return I begin today to drift away. God I don't wanna care I don't wanna feel anymore I wanna be numb forever I wish I'd be indifferent Indifferent to pain Indifferent to the world around me Never again to shed a tear Shed all I have left today. God help me follow through Let me be strong, stronger than this, way stronger than this !!! 29th April 7:35pm PS: I was gonna disable comments on this post ... but as an after thought here's what I'm gonna do... u can comment on it... but I won't be recommenting on this particular post. Thanks for your cooperation in advance !

... " A young girl, who is quite charming, easily miscible with people of varied interests and thoughts, pretty in her own way stares at her own reflection in the mirror glass. Her eyes smile at what she sees, she observes closely her hair, clutched carelessly behind her neck, many stray strands finding place on her flushed cheeks, resting unperturbed on her forehead. She twinkles as she watches charcoal needle like earrings dangle from her earlobes. She runs her finger caressing the black and brown beads adorning her neck. She feels beautiful today... she does not everyday, but today she likes her appearance. And yet she is not happy,she feels lonely, unlonged for, and unworthy! She fears never having anyone to run fingers through her hair, to compliment her making her blush pink in the face, to want to hold her for a just a lil longer, to think of her every waking hour and want to make her feel loved. Her eyes moisten as a teardrop escapes from the corner of her eye temporarily ...

Hmmm so as i promised that i'll be writin soon abt the fun thing i did yday..... here i am with a brand new post. This one is dedicated to Bonnie as well.......:) As it so happened I had my Computer Graphics internal practical today so the entire day yesterday the most obvious thing on my mind was my file completion and also the fact that i know for myself what i've done in my file! { fellow engineers wud know ki har koi har cheez khud nahi karta hai.... toh after u share program code, doosre bande ka code samajhna bhi alag task hota hai .... besides toiling to make it different ;) } By 7:30pm I was totally drained out and not to forget, tooooo bugged for no rhyme or reason at all. This doesn't happen to me often so expectedly mum and dad almost pestered me with constant questions about what was wrong and why my mood was off. They had another reason to quiz me, I had gone and announced to mum in the kitchen : "mujhe aaj dinner nahi khaana.... i dont want to eat anythin...

Well now is prolly the third time that im listenin to this absolutely heavenly track by Adnan Sami.......i don't wanna be sounding like a sleep deprived, dreamy eyed girl but then this song is not to be heard ... it is to be felt! guzre jo mere ghar se, toh ruk jaaye sitaare haay! iss tanha bhari raat ko chamkaao kisi din (chehre pe mere zulf ko phailaao kisi din sar rakh ke mere seene pe so jaao kisi din) - 2 pedo ki tarah husn ki baarish mein nahaaloon baarish mein nahaaloon, haan nahaaloon pedo ki tarah husn ki baarish mein nahaaloon baadal ke tarah jhoom ke ghar aao kisi din aa jaao kisi din, aa jaao kisi din (ho chehre pe mere zulf ko phailaao kisi din sar rakh ke mere seene pe so jaao kisi din) - 2 (everytime you go away baby...baby i keep lookin the world for you girl ) -2 khushbu ki tarah guzaro mere dil ki gali se dil ki gali se, haan gali se khushbu ki tarah guzaro mere dil ki gali se phoolon ki tarah mujhpe bikhar jaao kisi din aa jaao kisi din, aa jaao kisi din (ho cheh...

ok what i really wanna say to all of u ppl is.... man dont ever think its alright , chalta hai ....... and if u ever think of takin up engg plz plz pretty plz never get into the situation i got today ... guess what, apparently god knows how the scrutinizer or the evaluator or both for 4 particular papers ...roll nos 15 to 18 of Manufacturing Processes of our class were like really pissed or somethin.... so when we got our first sem results way back on mar 7th 2006.....we (ok lemme come back to myself) i was :O :( :(( : :-/ :-? all in rapid progression and then consequently today was the day that i gave the fateful re:appear paper and man did it suck!!! im tellin u i kept thinkin all the while .... i did better last time how did the god damn banda not pass me ??????? and yday was another nightmare...........hellishly borin this subject i was tryin to gulp down as much as possi but excuse me for bein normal and irritable ......... i faltered .... i slept at the wrong time , got reallllll...

Me has been gigglin all day today.... and clappin mez hands like a kid.... two reasons: Papers Khatam yay!!!! (bina padhe bhi accha hua..... wanna thank all my frnds who padhaoed me anythin and everythin today .... thanks guys :P) Gini.....:) [read as geeny, greeny without the 'r'] {Thanks a ton Rajat, makes me smile each time i look at it :) } heres presentin Gini....

Okay I just chked my mail and found this really nice email.... i found it funny so thot i'd share it with u guys :) A man and his wife were in a court for their divorce case. The Problem was who should get custody of the child. The wife screamed and jumped up and said: "Your Honor. I brought The child into the world with all the pain and labor. The child Should be in my custody. " The judge turned to the husband and said: "What do you have to Say in your defense?" The man sat for a while contemplating...then slowly rose. "Your Honor... If I put a dollar in a Pepsi Vending Machine and a Pepsi Comes out... Whose Pepsi is it... The machine's or mine ?" ????? And there's another absolutely hilarious fwd i remembered.....here goes In some remote village of India, one masterji isteaching the Mahabharat katha to class 6 students. He is at the krishnajanma' part of it. Masterji: "Kansa heard the akashwani that his sister's 8th child i...

Thats my mood ... flowery, colorful and exuding cheerfulness Guess what...hehe i've had the most amazing day there cud be.... and guess again.... i'm gonna blog about it :P Lemme first list out the reasons that made me happy Pratham Bonnie Tanuj My Blog Here's how it all began : Yday i had a 17 min chat with Pratham and as usual i was in a goofy mood so i mustve asked him some cute questions... line of the convo: me (7:16:29 PM): honey me (7:16:34 PM): can i ask u something pratham (7:16:37 PM): bolo me (7:16:52 PM): tu itnaaaa busy kyun rehta hai hamesha :(( pratham (7:16:59 PM): lol pratham (7:17:02 PM): kaam hai na pratham (7:17:04 PM): karna padta hai As usual when i pasted that for Bonnie... she had said to this "that was sooo adorable! :-*" Then minutes later i remember thankin her " bonnie me is sayin thanchew....mez likes the comments rollin in on me blog and i like that i got 2 new blog buddies thanks to u.....mez lovee...

Iam right now in the middle of doin this chapter of algorithm analysis and design for my exams startin monday and of course i'm tuned into the radio... At this moment i just wanna thank Radio City 91.1 FM coz they played like my fav'est song ... and like they say when u get something when ure least expectin it, it feels awesome... i apply the same to music...hearing my song (meanin one of the millions that i love or just the one i was hummin mere seconds ago) on the radio is sooo much better than hearing it on my comp :D So without further ado, heres what i heard.... Tere Ishq Meinnnnnn Haye Tere Ishq Mein Tere Ishq Mein Haye Tere Ishq Meinnn Raakh Se Rookhi Koyal Se Kaali Raat Kate Naaaa Hijaraan Waali Tere Ishq Meinnnnnn Haye Tere Ishq Mein Raakh Se Rookhi Koyal Se Kaali Raat Kate Naaaa Hijaraan Waali Tere Ishq Mein Haye Haye ... Tere Ishq Mein *4 Teri Justujoo Karte Rahen Marte Rahen Tere Ishq Mein Tere Rubaroo Baithe Hue Marte Rahen Tere Ishq Mein Tere Rubaroo Teri Justujoo...

Oh well it was around 2am when i finally decided to fish out my pendrive from my bag and copy the songs i had on it to my laptop. I had this cd (Jagjit Singh A...Z) copied onto when I was at Swati's place day before yday. Hmmm after the extremely boring task of copying approximately 655 mb on my laptop {it took time mere lappie ka USB thoda hila hua hai so my comp wud stop detecting the drive in the middle of copyin .... i know damn it!!} ,I thought well now that i've got all this new stuff to explore...{new meanin addition to music...don't look at me like that I am a Jagjit Singh fan :) } I might as well start the process now. So I added all the songs from 'P' in my playlist heard em...then moved on to 'S'...that made for like an hour of good music endin with "shaam se..." {love it :) } (thats all i can say, I didn't really feel it...i'm too sleepy for that lol) And then I got bored so I decided to tune in to the radio on my phone and gues...

Oh well after quite a buggin day I'm having an amazing night after all.... Heres whats happened in the past 3 hrs 12:00am I'm sittin on my bed and staring at the mess around me .... i cleaned up my book shelf area in my room today and to say that it was a very tirin and time consuming chore would be an understatement !!! So there I was wonderin where the hell all this crap was lyin before i had rumaged through and dislocated everything and all that was on my mind was 'him'. I hadn't spoken to him since thursday and was beginnin to get unsettled, ppl who know me wud testify anyday that this is pretty much expected. 12:19 am : I glance at my calendar... which btw i just put up today :P .... "shit its Saakhi's birthday today and its past 12..." I called her up, wished her a happy day and was done in about 5 minutes. Back to being undecided abt what to do , what to study. 12:26 am : My phone in my pocket rings and the moment i feel it vibrate, I almost u...

Alright so today is April Fool's Day and believe me when I tell you I'm not really a fan of the day ...... why because personally i would never even waste my time and energy thinkin of a practical joke / prank to play on someone to be able to shout out "Bakra" when the plan is revealed. And its not tough to guess that i don't really enjoy being made a "bakra" out of. No no I'm not saying that I'm a sore loser or I lack spirit or something but its just that i don't appreciate it as much as a means of entertainment. Anyways I was sleeping soundly at 8:30 am in the morning today {obviously considering that I had slept way past 3am yday, I am a self proclaimed nocturnal bird} and my phone rings to Kuch Is Tarah ... (my ringtone) I manage to see from the corner of my eye that it was Dinansha, ab usually aisa hota hai that she gives me a missed call and i call coz shes in hostel and mostly managing low bal, but this time it kept ringin so I picked ...