Oh Lord

ok what i really wanna say to all of u ppl is.... man dont ever think its alright , chalta hai ....... and if u ever think of takin up engg plz plz pretty plz never get into the situation i got today ...
guess what, apparently god knows how the scrutinizer or the evaluator or both for 4 particular papers ...roll nos 15 to 18 of Manufacturing Processes of our class were like really pissed or somethin.... so when we got our first sem results way back on mar 7th 2006.....we (ok lemme come back to myself) i was :O :( :(( : :-/ :-? all in rapid progression and then consequently today was the day that i gave the fateful re:appear paper and man did it suck!!!
im tellin u i kept thinkin all the while .... i did better last time how did the god damn banda not pass me ???????
and yday was another nightmare...........hellishly borin this subject i was tryin to gulp down as much as possi but excuse me for bein normal and irritable ......... i faltered .... i slept at the wrong time , got reallllllly bored and practically gave up soon
hua kya?..... subhe subhe ki tension, in our words "solid fatt rahi thi" and sach boloon toh paper dekh ke aur bhi fatt gayi [ab they say u shd learn to smile at everythin so here i go :P]
oh not to forget it was and rather is damn cold these days so i cud barely stand straight in the mornin forget concin and studyin
Now kinda like the only thing i can say is that "Oh lord.....for heavens sake just make me pass..." "i cannot just cannot give this paper again and moreover even begin to explain to my folks why i landed up in such a mess....
fingers crossed till my result comes ....:-SS (:nail biting:)

This dates back to December 18th 2006...... after I had come home from a particularly long and tiring journey from the examination centre (which btw was in the middle of nowhere) via cycle rickshaw - metro - cycle rickshaw!
I had another exam the next day which was thankfully the only subject that I thought I knew in the 3rd semester, so i managed to stay calm and study after resting but whatever the tension did creep in and ppl who know me wud agree....I'm not really the ones to take tension for anything in life...anything at all longer than say half an hour :P

Oh I forgot to mention, this entry was saved on my comp for two reasons....
a) I wanted to vent out what I was sayin to myself in my head by writing it down and
b) I had planned to start bloggin with that... started bloggin on 22nd December though [on a completely different note ;) ]
Now if ure wondering why I posted this today.... well aaj 'back' {re:appear} ka result aa gaya ... phew !!!
I came through....I dunno how but its done and boy am I relieved or what.