Fleeting Thought & Complicated Truth
This is just something i scribbled on my notes at 3:03am this morning...
I can handle the distance when you're far away
But I can't handle the distance when you're right here!
And I notice that I confused quite a few people with my last post and not many of them are clear with my current housing situation and plans for the near future so here's exactly how it is...
- I live with my parents in a two bedroom flat in Delhi; this house has been screaming for renovation for years now since its a very old construction and we own a lotta clutter...{old stuff belonging to my dad, bro and sis} that we haven't gotten rid of.
- The past year and a half our new house was getting built, say about an hour and a half {maybe two} from here. It was finally done up and ready to move into in January
- My bro got married last year in October and my sis in law is coming to India in April end for her exams.
- We needed to have moved to our new place before she came here, for obvious reasons... a better and bigger house. We did move finally on 25th March much to my annoyance but I kinda had no choice as I had already delayed it as much as I could and that was the only time I didn't have exams or anything important at college.
- I hated staying there... didn't unpack much in an attempt to protest. Reasons, uh well for one its on the other end of town... very far from my college{47km one way} with no means of commuting {dad driving me down everyday wasn't an option} and secondly it depresses me just to be there away from all my frnds and everything familiar, comforting.
- So I did what I had to do...convinced Mum and Dad to move back here even if it meant leaving half my stuff behind, sleeping on the folding bed, watching the old TV with the bad picture tube {don't ask... the blue is sometimes green, the orange is sometimes red :P}, managing without a washing machine and even a refrigerator...My biggest reason: goin to college is not a problem and plus my exam centre for my end sems in May is 2 minutes from here, its madness expecting me to come from there for my exams.
- So we finally did come back on Friday, 4th April, cleaned up the mess this place was in till and dropped down dead with body ache and tiredness. I'll be honest, I was very happy! :)
- Major Complication: yup there had to be a glitch ;)
My sis in law is comin in April end so we need to be there but I have end sems from 5th to 16th May so we need to be here. :P - Basically the moral of the story is that Mum might have to go back and I will too as soon as my exams finish on the 16th of May {I'm takin in all i can from here, the place i call "home"} to the same place that depresses the hell outta me. And that is why NewsFlash from Vands' Desk reads:
"Confused Life doesn't make sense...
Uncertainty looming in the future..."
Comments
luv u
i lived all my life till 10th in UP, we changed houses in the colony.. but i LOVED it there... when suddenly my dad decided that ki nahin... u r suppose to learn culture et all frm where yu belong..crap.. and i had to cme dwn SOuth for my 11th and 12th.. in a damn HOSTEL!
i fell sick.. i hated it
resolved never to cme back...unlike yur dad.. my dad once he has made up his mind..seldom changes it :-|
so i came back was veryyyyyyyyyy happy.........in Delhi! Great 1 yr...b4 i was AGAIN set back to south...
and i m again in sme other part of the south with my parents.. but we change houses every 2 yrs..
i dnt have a house that i can call home :)
now yu r better off honey///way better off! at least yu got yur own house.. and yu will definitely not be moving again..hain na?
we have to move again.. i dnt knw where to this time.
So cheer up.. sme things in life.. HAVE to be let go. yu cannot hold on to past...and cry...as I said look at the bright side :)
u r in a place where u belong.. and i m in a place i HATE, but i m with my FAMILY after so loooonnggg... and i m happy [ ok i get angry smetimes at them, but that doesnt count :D]
ok? cheer up will u?
I m glad i made yu smile :)
Life is such...what can we do..other than smile at the stupid situations we end up in :)
lodsa love :-*
lol@cute guy living next door ... im still lolin at that :P
anyways abt liking the new place well i will find out after 16th may... i have time before my college reopens in August... maybe tab tak we move back to Delhi in a better house... i dunno yeh sab property decisions ofcourse my dad wud take in coordination with my bro...i'll just have to keep reminding them that my life is a major consideration :P
till them im atleast happy im here and here {home and blogsville} and have frnds :)
PS: dad didn't like it there too... he bought a small fridge today even if its just till mid may :D
yeah exact same thing we say in unison whenever we talk abt this...
baad ki baad mein dekhenge :)
luv u too sweets...
But I can't handle the distance when you're right here!"
That Was So Touching..!!
My God..!!
Are You The Lost Friend Whom I Was Searchin' For ????
pehle toh badaaaa sa thank u for the ram katha, bahut accha laga that u shared.
abt me not having to move again... i will have to, i just dunno where...but then i keep tellin myself that i'll have to go live by myself anyways if i get a job outta Delhi...
basically we're gonna be pros at this moving business and it will eventually help our kids :P :D
you're right life is such :)
and im happy that i have a lotta things to crib about but i have a lotta things to thank for too :)
hugs !
yayie... i loved the pics too :P
needless to say, thats why i put em up ;)
waise haan time being ke liye hi sahi but everythings sorted now :)
XOXO
oh well i'm glad i touched a chord...:)
i dunno whether im the lost frnd u were searching for but i could be a frnd you found, thanks for dropping by :)
alright ! :)
try makin unfamiliar familiar...
it works...:)
b/w m back at confessions!
But I can't handle the distance when you're right here!"
loved it...
and i already know the situation... i know how difficult it was and how confusing it is to get there too [:P] but you got your way na even if it is for now. and kal kine dekha hai? pehle exams ho jaane de and then we'll see what has to happen... and you know we'll all be here through it all... chin up...
btw i came up with something too... "true love happens just once. but when you find the right person, you fall in love over and over again."
and you managed things in a SMART way.
bs
But I can't handle the distance when you're right here!
- beautiful..
as for the situation, you will pull through and out of the confusion. Life goes on and changes are there no matter if we want them. Once you accept it it will be easier. For now just good luck with everything!! :)
I mean anything new and different is always depressing..but running away from it isnt the way to deal with it...
Am sure once u start staying in the new house u will start liking it...!
Loved tht yayie of urz :) cho cute...
@ Mann
I loved ur line contribution there...so true n really :)tht makes me think whn wil I find ma true love :)
Is someone listening... :??? :P
And hey.. try to get all this out of ur mind now.. and good luck for ur exams!
hehe! take care.. and all the best for the exams! :)
yeah i know ure back dear ... will read up on everything tomorrow abhi exams chal rahe hain
abt making unfamiliar familiar...will do it when i get there and let ya know how it goes :)
well i kinda had to, it was too important for me to be settled before my exams so my folks couldn't refuse or think of an alternative either...
hehe bhaiya ka saara stuff yahin hai, i haven't touched it, he'll come and sort it out himself :P
:)
im glad u loved it
ure right kal kisi ne nahi dekha hai, abhi jo hai im gonna make the most of it and then i guess it will work out eventually...
its just that right now i really had no time to waste waiting for things to fall in place and no patience either... will try again.
and im sure u guys are always gonna be here... thats what i love abt my life... :)
oh and im all for the line u wrote... it makes perfect sense and i looove it
hugs!
first things first... thanks a lot for dropping by here :)
im glad u liked the pics
well yeah managed for now ;)
thanks :)
yup life moves on... kinda like time and tide wait for none...thanks for being here :)
haanji i will ...
wanna make the most of whatever time i get here, when i have my frnds in the neighbourhood :)
well yeah hopin for the same...
i know i can make my peace with it if not like it... but now was just not the time.
PS: i blogrolled u :)
hehe :)
ure mad!
abt ur true love...aayega bacche... just hang in there, uve got me for company :P
that was indeed my intention :)
how much do u trouble your parents :P :P
heheh
but koi na.. everything changes and the quicker u get used to this fact the better
but till then.. enjoy your old home :)
tc
2.5 hrs for 23 km ??? where do u stay yaar ?
and ure right i am trying atleast to focus on other stuff....
thanks for the luck, need it...esp with DSP in this sem :((
ohho i know thats really buggin... i kinda don't trust blogger or my modem now....
i make sure i always type out recomments in notepad first and hit ctrl+a ctrl+c before commenting on other ppl's posts :D
yeah i know i have sweet folks :), they kinda had no choice this time though...
lol@ u wishing for my next door guy to be saif kinda hot lookin, oh boy do i wish for that....:P
thanks for the luck sweets :)
found your blog thru another - best of luck with the confusion :P
atleast you have choices - think about that :)
oh okie, glad u dropped by :)
thanks for the luck :P
i know im lucky to have choices...atleast now :)
@cheri
bang on! :D
cute post!
thanks :)
Things like....
You wont see the same old red rose blossoming in your neighbours garden which you kept stealing.
You wont walk through the same street to get head and shoulder shampoo to take a bath.
You wont sometimes have the same landline number
You wont have that little kittten which always ate the leftovers off the dustbin again...
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My empathies !!!
anyway, had anything like this happened at my place a tight slap across my face would have settled matters......
exactly...
appreciate that u understand :)
uhmm well ive been told that by a couple of other ppl as well, i'll see if i can help it ...thanks for the compliment though :)
btw i didnt quite understand, what exactly did u mean by "anything like this"?... don't like the idea of a tight slap across ur face :|
hey hiiee... welcome back ashu, i'll read up on u asap :)
and uve shifted 4 times this yr already? good lord, that mustve been a whole lotta work....
i agree with home being where u find peace.... where u can go to bed without a thought in ur head and wake up to smile the next morning...
this is how it is for me, i know it'll change but am happy for now... and who knows i might even be happy later...:)
i know how difficult it is to be away from friends for long, u can have the best in the world, yet u miss them the most... :)
in this city of pune, which ppl called fun to be in... i only find loneliness, far away from Jaipur, my home town or delhi/ggn where most of my friends are, its horrifying...
Weekends which ppl call leisure time, i call it the worst days in the whole week...
yesterday when they called from back home, asked me... wat u doin home at 8 in the night... they said... "aish kar, kya ghar par beetha hai..." i cudnt tell dem... i dont feel like i belong here :((
Atelast u have ur family in ur new home... I only have I, me, myself and this lappy of mine :)
Hope u will adjut urself soon n well in the new house... :)
Gud Day
Cheers!!!
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all the best with ur exams...
baako jo hoga baad mein dekha jayega :)
hain hum toh kya gham? and we will be around u whereever u go, sweets
cheer up!!
where art thou!
kahan gayab?
well had no choice... than to trouble them this time :P
im doin just that
thanks...u take care too
im glad u understand what i mean... and yes i do have my folks here with me...it wud have been a lot harder without em.
take care...
late welcome ... :P
and read ur blog
i chked...and noted down, will let u know when i do it :)
nope not quite... :)
thanks a lot for dropping by here
hey i chked CBF and i quite liked the idea... really cool, will drop by soon :)
thanks for visiting.
chked and noted down....will do it soon
thanks a ton dear... need all the luck i can get :)
well not really, i don't wanna be at two places, i just wanna be here...
anyways im super glad to have all of u around :)
thanks for the luck and thanks for being here
hugs!!
helloz...
yahin thi yaar bas yeh stupid net nahi chal raha tha... anyways im pretty much back now, u mustve found out, i dropped by ur place :)
firstly thanks for droppin by... i had thought of that as well but my folks won't let me stay by myself... esp my mum :P
oh and am glad u love the title :)
PS: im blogrollin u...
I still remember you blog rolled me once upon a time which I did not respond to at all.
I also realize that I have brutally ignored your comments for some months.
But all I wanna say is,
Thanks for being a part of a very short list of visible readers of my blog.
Sachin
brutally ignored my comments ?
cmon sachin... whats up .. why this suddenly?
anyways ure always welcome... i like being part of ur reader list :)
**I can handle the distance when you're far away
But I can't handle the distance when you're right here!** Thats a deep nice thot!Loved it!
hey thanks a lot for dropping by :)
im kinda floored by the "WOW" :P
glad u liked the thought !