At a loss of words!!!

Hehee, I'm sure it sounds strange that i'm 'writing' when I'm at a 'loss of words'....... but then thats the catch, I'm only just gonna tell you what lef tme at a loss of words and not my reaction to it.... How can i react....i'm speechless :P
As it turns out I was watchin Lizzie Mcguire and having an early dinner when I got a sms from one of my dearest frnds Cheri [Thats what I call her, her name's Mads or Madhavi] to wish me luck for my last exam and yeah stating that I'm gonna rock. Funny how ppl are so confident of your capabilitites.
Anyways she had mentioned Bonnie [Neers] in the sms so i was wondering whether she was still in town...[Bonnie was supposed to leave for Pune ... and leave me a msg which i had not received till the time.], so i decided to switch on my comp and chk my mail, yahoo for offliners and also reply to Cheri's sms [Yes i use the comp for that ... its free ;) ]
I had chked my mail ... no new mails, logged into yahoo, had a couple of offliners, finished readin those and then I almost routinely scrolled down the list to see who was online...didn't expect anybody to be there so was pleasantly surprised when i saw the yellow smiley :) next to 'prathmesh naik' [Oho you shd know by now, my blog's gonna be full of Honey ;)) ]
I buzzed him sayin hello and since there was DFS on my mind [DFS = Depth First Search of Graphs in Data Structures]...i didn't say much after hello....then i realised that i hadn't shown him my blog, so i gave him the link to it and then casually went about solvin my question...the one i was occupied with. It had been barely 10 min when i heard the prelude of Deep by Binocular [love the song and its the sound i hear when i get an instant message on yahoo.]
I clicked on my IM window with him to see :
"u r my sky my ground
and everything in between
vands i love u"
Blimey it took me a while to realise that he was reading 'Old Penwork' and this was one of my own poems.... :). I never fail to say it back so i did say I love you too but then little did i know that some serious praise was in store.
Thats the thing with him, howmuchever i might know him, he still manages to disarm me by sayin stuff out of the the blue!!!
[I love this part so I'm gonna write in full detail and yeah I did promise a huge post to Bonnie ;)]
{This is for u darling..... muah!}
Alright so i was still wondering what I had written to get so much appreciation also considering that the 'Penwork' was nuthin new and everyone had already read it.....he tells me i didn't know what i meant when i wrote that, i told him i knew perfectly.
By this time the phone had rung and it was Vikram Bhaiya at the other end, he was talking to Dad and I was only half paying attention to chat, a lil while say some 10 min later I got im ed again.......this time it was straight but it said a lot "vands >:D< i love u" is what i got and I couldn't help but smile, I didn't know what to say to "u know me lucky that someone loves me this much".
I asked him what all he'd read and he said sab kuch, phir he even answered "Is there a way out?"........
pratham (8:52:10 PM): tujhe pata hai
me (8:52:13 PM): kya
pratham (8:52:20 PM): why we don have much to talk about like the way other people in love do
pratham (8:52:28 PM): thts because we believe in sensible talks
pratham (8:52:32 PM): theres no point talking about
pratham (8:52:35 PM): khaana khaaya
me (8:52:41 PM): its not bout bein in love
pratham (8:52:44 PM): kyun nahi khaaya...
me (8:52:48 PM): we're not there
me (8:52:54 PM): i mean in that place i know
me (8:53:19 PM): u read that entry, is there a way out? right?
pratham (8:53:42 PM): theres no way out vands
pratham (8:53:45 PM): because i love being in
pratham (8:53:59 PM): with so much love around me i toh would have never stressed on finding a way out
me (8:54:30 PM): okay so u agree with my frnd
me (8:54:39 PM): callin it a potentially good situation?
pratham (8:54:51 PM): not a good situation
pratham (8:54:56 PM): i don take it as a situation
pratham (8:55:00 PM): i am infact taking it as life
me (8:55:15 PM): ummm ok
me (8:55:20 PM): but just so u know
me (8:55:27 PM): u know what she called us
me (8:55:35 PM): when i described it to her?
pratham (8:56:22 PM): bolo
me (8:56:45 PM): she called us cute like an age old couple who know everythin abt each other
pratham (8:56:54 PM): thts what...
me (8:56:54 PM): and i went like kya baat kar rahi hai :P
pratham (8:57:18 PM): lolzzz...

Oh i was talkin less coz ek toh i really didnt know what had struck him and secondly i had only managed to compare us to "a couple" for the very first time.....
Ok now Dad handed the phone to me as my bro wanted to wish me luck and also talk to me.

pratham (8:57:22 PM): vands can i kiss u...
me (8:57:30 PM): do u have to ask
[This is like the normalest of reactions.....coz its not the first time he had asked me that ;) ]
pratham (8:57:51 PM): naah a serious one vands...
pratham (8:58:02 PM): u know how it is..
me (8:58:03 PM): yup
[No of course i didnt know how it was, if i had known i wudnt have been left to swallow my own saliva and wonder what on earth is goin on??? ]
pratham (8:58:06 PM): a kiss on ur forehead..
pratham (8:58:11 PM): then ur eyes...
pratham (8:58:15 PM): and then ur lips..
pratham (8:58:22 PM): the sensation is good...
pratham (8:58:27 PM): its heaven in fact...
pratham (8:58:43 PM): trust me at this moment i am not concerned that i love __ ... and prolly i am doing something wrong..
[__ u dont need to know.... calls for another long story oh ya that reminds me i still have to hear it .... honey u listenin?? ;) ]
pratham (8:58:52 PM): for me i want to make this moment a memorable one...
pratham (8:58:53 PM): this is it
pratham (8:59:11 PM): when two people who have been very platonic till date
pratham (8:59:58 PM): i jus want u to know...that vands...
viskeyin (9:00:01 PM): honey one sec...keep typin
[Oh lord thats by far the lamest thing i cudve typed but u see my situation was such my bro's tellin me that hes gonna be giving me a 2 hr lecture on laptop maintainence and how i shd reconfigure my desktop...blah blah and all i was doin besides "ok alright, will do" to my bro, was gapin at my screen and tryin to tell myself that i was readin what i was readin :- ]
pratham (9:00:08 PM): i have never met any girl who has loved me so much after my mom..
[line of great significance and it obviously is damn special to me.....it was like i was being awarded for doin somethin that i didn't even have control over.....wow now what could be better!!!]
pratham (9:00:17 PM): and trust me..
pratham (9:00:26 PM): today ... i m cursing the distance between us...
pratham (9:00:30 PM): i don intend to hurt u..
pratham (9:00:36 PM): i don intend to offend
[iam yet to decipher what cud possibly hurt or offend me......i havent gotten to spk to him so the doubts aren't clear]
pratham (9:00:47 PM): i jus want u to know ki ur one special... very special person in my life...
pratham (9:00:59 PM): and if this is the way... then it is...
pratham (9:01:12 PM): and its going to be the same till the time i find another one..

Yeah now i hung up the phone with my bro and had to finally read this over to make some sense of it......damn i got disconnected at the very moment and managed to get in only after waitin for 2 minutes.....

me (9:03:20 PM): ek min ruk u kinda took me by storm here
me (9:04:07 PM): can i ask u a really silly question
pratham (9:04:31 PM): bolo
me (9:04:44 PM): whats platonic im not sure of the meanin here
pratham (9:04:54 PM): platonic means...
pratham (9:05:12 PM): theres this love.. wherein people have no physical contact nor do they intend to have any
me (9:05:33 PM): oh

Yup it was the silliest question and after readin the answer all i coud get out of my mouth was the monosylabble "oh" and guess what?... he signed out, no no he had to sign out.
[Its more usual than him comin online also ...... hehee bonnie and i call it the "usual houdini"..... i thot of it coz it reminded me of "Houdini, this famous magician (old english chapter) who was the master of the disappearin act.....quite apt na? :P]
I was half hopin for him to return but i guess he had to go so i was left shiverin {the familiar shiver only more spine chillin this time}, not knowin what to say and tryin to digest that i had just read what i had just read.
Thank heavens Bonnie was here, i remember tellin her "pratham aaj theek toh tha na, hila ke gaya...i can't sit straight!". She was more than keen to know what he'd said....but this time she also had nuthin to say.....except "he obviously meant all that so no wonder u r shaking....i'm happy :)"
We both agreed that he was prolly very overwhelmed at the time but then i have to say that it was an absolute storm. My take on it..."He might claim that i know him well but i surely don't understand him. :P"
The night was a major time freeze.....incase u're forgettin i did have an exam the next day. God knows what i managed but i did, coz the exam was good. :)