Complexities Vs Simplicities ... of the mind!

[Appended to Penwork] 29th April 7:28pm I know so little Yet it hurts so much I know it stings Yet I love so much The hardest thing I know I have to do is Walk Away ..., Never to return I begin today to drift away. God I don't wanna care I don't wanna feel anymore I wanna be numb forever I wish I'd be indifferent Indifferent to pain Indifferent to the world around me Never again to shed a tear Shed all I have left today. God help me follow through Let me be strong, stronger than this, way stronger than this !!! 29th April 7:35pm PS: I was gonna disable comments on this post ... but as an after thought here's what I'm gonna do... u can comment on it... but I won't be recommenting on this particular post. Thanks for your cooperation in advance !

... " A young girl, who is quite charming, easily miscible with people of varied interests and thoughts, pretty in her own way stares at her own reflection in the mirror glass. Her eyes smile at what she sees, she observes closely her hair, clutched carelessly behind her neck, many stray strands finding place on her flushed cheeks, resting unperturbed on her forehead. She twinkles as she watches charcoal needle like earrings dangle from her earlobes. She runs her finger caressing the black and brown beads adorning her neck. She feels beautiful today... she does not everyday, but today she likes her appearance. And yet she is not happy,she feels lonely, unlonged for, and unworthy! She fears never having anyone to run fingers through her hair, to compliment her making her blush pink in the face, to want to hold her for a just a lil longer, to think of her every waking hour and want to make her feel loved. Her eyes moisten as a teardrop escapes from the corner of her eye temporarily ...

Hmmm so as i promised that i'll be writin soon abt the fun thing i did yday..... here i am with a brand new post. This one is dedicated to Bonnie as well.......:) As it so happened I had my Computer Graphics internal practical today so the entire day yesterday the most obvious thing on my mind was my file completion and also the fact that i know for myself what i've done in my file! { fellow engineers wud know ki har koi har cheez khud nahi karta hai.... toh after u share program code, doosre bande ka code samajhna bhi alag task hota hai .... besides toiling to make it different ;) } By 7:30pm I was totally drained out and not to forget, tooooo bugged for no rhyme or reason at all. This doesn't happen to me often so expectedly mum and dad almost pestered me with constant questions about what was wrong and why my mood was off. They had another reason to quiz me, I had gone and announced to mum in the kitchen : "mujhe aaj dinner nahi khaana.... i dont want to eat anythin...

Well now is prolly the third time that im listenin to this absolutely heavenly track by Adnan Sami.......i don't wanna be sounding like a sleep deprived, dreamy eyed girl but then this song is not to be heard ... it is to be felt! guzre jo mere ghar se, toh ruk jaaye sitaare haay! iss tanha bhari raat ko chamkaao kisi din (chehre pe mere zulf ko phailaao kisi din sar rakh ke mere seene pe so jaao kisi din) - 2 pedo ki tarah husn ki baarish mein nahaaloon baarish mein nahaaloon, haan nahaaloon pedo ki tarah husn ki baarish mein nahaaloon baadal ke tarah jhoom ke ghar aao kisi din aa jaao kisi din, aa jaao kisi din (ho chehre pe mere zulf ko phailaao kisi din sar rakh ke mere seene pe so jaao kisi din) - 2 (everytime you go away baby...baby i keep lookin the world for you girl ) -2 khushbu ki tarah guzaro mere dil ki gali se dil ki gali se, haan gali se khushbu ki tarah guzaro mere dil ki gali se phoolon ki tarah mujhpe bikhar jaao kisi din aa jaao kisi din, aa jaao kisi din (ho cheh...

ok what i really wanna say to all of u ppl is.... man dont ever think its alright , chalta hai ....... and if u ever think of takin up engg plz plz pretty plz never get into the situation i got today ... guess what, apparently god knows how the scrutinizer or the evaluator or both for 4 particular papers ...roll nos 15 to 18 of Manufacturing Processes of our class were like really pissed or somethin.... so when we got our first sem results way back on mar 7th 2006.....we (ok lemme come back to myself) i was :O :( :(( : :-/ :-? all in rapid progression and then consequently today was the day that i gave the fateful re:appear paper and man did it suck!!! im tellin u i kept thinkin all the while .... i did better last time how did the god damn banda not pass me ??????? and yday was another nightmare...........hellishly borin this subject i was tryin to gulp down as much as possi but excuse me for bein normal and irritable ......... i faltered .... i slept at the wrong time , got reallllll...

Me has been gigglin all day today.... and clappin mez hands like a kid.... two reasons: Papers Khatam yay!!!! (bina padhe bhi accha hua..... wanna thank all my frnds who padhaoed me anythin and everythin today .... thanks guys :P) Gini.....:) [read as geeny, greeny without the 'r'] {Thanks a ton Rajat, makes me smile each time i look at it :) } heres presentin Gini....

Okay I just chked my mail and found this really nice email.... i found it funny so thot i'd share it with u guys :) A man and his wife were in a court for their divorce case. The Problem was who should get custody of the child. The wife screamed and jumped up and said: "Your Honor. I brought The child into the world with all the pain and labor. The child Should be in my custody. " The judge turned to the husband and said: "What do you have to Say in your defense?" The man sat for a while contemplating...then slowly rose. "Your Honor... If I put a dollar in a Pepsi Vending Machine and a Pepsi Comes out... Whose Pepsi is it... The machine's or mine ?" ????? And there's another absolutely hilarious fwd i remembered.....here goes In some remote village of India, one masterji isteaching the Mahabharat katha to class 6 students. He is at the krishnajanma' part of it. Masterji: "Kansa heard the akashwani that his sister's 8th child i...